That needs doing, so does that,
wash the dishes, feed the cats
Vacuum carpets, mop the floor,
sort the bins and so much more
Fold the laundry, make a meal,
wash that hair, is this all real?!
Shower daily, don’t delay,
remember all the bills to pay
Check your email, check your texts,
oh dear god what will be next?!
Heat the house, make the bed,
remember what your good friend said?
Build routine, easy as that,
stay on your feet, you can’t eat that!
Keep on going, do ALL the things,
well that’s enough — my whole world spins…
A daily struggle to keep atop
the household chores, clean, tidy, mop
Feeding, weeding, cleaning, fuck!
I’m on the verge of becoming stuck
It’s all too much, I cannot think
I’m thirsty with no will to drink
I’m frozen now, I cannot move
I’ve dug myself into a groove
A groove so deep, I cannot see
I can’t do this, what’s wrong with me?
There is no order, there’s no way out
What can I do but scream and shout?
Well that’s not right, you’re not a kid
Grow up, woman! Get those things did!
Make a list, check it twice,
I’m feeling naughty — this isn’t nice…
Forgetting something, forget it all,
I’ve run too fast and now I fall
Hello darkness, my old pal,
Wrap up this crying, shaking gal
Soothe her worries, keep her calm
Use your wit and all your charm
Keep her passive, keep her sweet
Convince her to get off her feet.
Sit her down, with space to breathe
Comfy now, she cannot leave
Convince her of her need to cry
How long for? Thats by-the-by
Keep her smiles, induce those tears
She needs to laugh, not face her fears
Darkness falls, and I descend
In to the shadows, when will this end?
I can’t relax, so much to do
So here I sit, with no way through.
On the go or standing still
Will I ever find the skills?
To cope with life, the normal stuff
Fuck knows now, I’ve had enough.
It’s all too much, I want to stop
The list is endless, my head could pop!
It’s go, go go, no time to chill
Keep going? Sure, but I’ll be ill.
So weigh that up before you decide
To berate me with your comments, snide
Listen up, brain — we’re not a good fit
Expecting things outside my remit
Can’t do it all, I need to stop
Need time to think, before I flop
Let me go, let me relax
Stop paying all that ADHD tax
I can’t remember, did I forget?
What was I doing? What’s this regret?
Wander off and leave me be,
Wait a while so I can see.
Depression? No, don’t join in too.
Can’t you see I’ve got LOADS to do?
Let me focus, let me live
How much more do you want me to give?
Let me smile, let me laugh
Don’t break now on my behalf
Stop this fighting inside my head
Or I’ll just stop, go straight to bed.
There I’ll lay, empty and hollow
Dreading morning, dreading tomorrow.
My mind is whirring, my head’s a buzz
All that’s left is cotton wool fuzz
I can’t remember a single thing
So back to the start, and let’s begin
That needs doing, so does that,
wash the dishes, feed the cats
Vacuum carpets, mop the floor,
sort the bins and so much more…
KD x